Below are the 15 most recent journal entries recorded in lil_starry_eyes' LiveJournal:

Thursday, February 19th, 2004
7:42 pm	Seems like I havent been on hee for a while now,weird. Realised not many people read this shit but thats ok. Today stated out good I guess. I bought 2 NOFX tickets for me and whoever else wants to go. i asked my old house mate sarah if she wanted to go and she does. So that was ok. I'm actually feeling really down and a bit emotional at the moment. I made friends with the drummer in Grahams band LIFELESS (supporting the lostprophets soon HOPEFULLY!)(www.lifelessrock.co.uk)(www.mafiososclothing.co.uk) Anyways me and Stee (drummer) became quite good friends until he got back with his bitch of an ex last month. Everyone hates her,all his friends. He doesnt want to be alone and he cant split up with her cause hes scaed of her! Anyways hes been ignorin me now since he got back with her so I told him I cant be his friend anymore cause of her and I'm crushed. She hates me more than anyone and she is the most horrible human being on this planet. She hits him and argues with him everytime they see each other and she has taken his friendship away from me cause she wont let him talk to me. I would love to smash her face in so you cant recognise it anymore. Going out with Caff tonight to get pissed and have a good time and get up to no good.HAY HAY."WOW Theres something in the air tonight!" FUCK OFF Current Music: stay with me- Finch (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 11th, 2004
7:48 pm	Ouch Today I got my tattoo re-done and it hurt lots cause he was going over old scar tissue. Its a bit of a bad quality photo but now is pink instead of purple, I dont think tattoos usually hurt much but today....woah!Pain. But got new idea for what I'm goin to get next.On the other side of my arm I'm going to get a design (need to think first) and have the same shootin star rays in pink going darker until they meet my old rays which are black.Should look ok. Graham wants me to get a "sleeve" of flowers and girly stuff but personally i think they are a bit unfeminine. Finaly met my parents again,they took me for lunch (had an atkins burger and it was super massive and yummy!so everything in diet world is ok)and it was really good to see them again. I get sad when I see my dad and how much older he's getting, hes already 80 and slowing down a bit,but thank god for my mum only being 56 and young in the head. My dad really pisses her off sometimes cause hes slower than ever before. Does anyone else reading this have older parents? Probably no use in askin anyway cause I'm sure no one reads my journal properly. Anyways were gettin a cat sent over to the house now so gotta go........ Current Mood: tired Current Music: Get get get get get over it...HAY (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 10th, 2004
5:38 pm	Pictures of my other HUGE bunny and G my man Love you infinately My fat fuck bunni Telulah,Hannah is quite tall and holding her long ways so you can imagine how big my bunny really is! (6 Comments |Comment on this)
2:50 pm	Pics of my tattoo,me,me and caff and hannah and hannah having a moment with drawn on glasses etc These are my bestest friends in the world (Carly is the best but shes at uni in Warwick)I would be lost without them,we took these pics last night when we were all having a laughing fit. Today hasn't been bad. Once again I fucked off my lecture.Oh well....life goes on.Started the atkins diet too,hope I will be able to stick to it,I feel good about it at the mo,lets see....... Current Mood: high Current Music: a static lullaby-The Shooting Star That Destroyed Us (Comment on this)
Monday, February 9th, 2004
10:10 pm	Not being me Well another stressful day yet again. Uni isn't going too good,kinda crap seen as its my final year and I dont wanna fuck things up cause I wanna get outa there... My old house mate Sarah came round today with her fiancee Niel,she kinda crapped on us when she met him. He was her whole world and we all seemed to come last. She used to be an alcoholic and so he wanted to watch her every move and even stopped her going out so she didn't drink. He was like a dad. He called all of us girls his Angels (Charlie's),creepy.He made her move in with him so it was just them two.Made me mad she used to be one of my best friends,and he ruined it. Hes like 24.I suppose I should be glad hes taking care of her so well,I hope he isn't ruining her youth. I haven't been feeling myself recently either. The past week has been my worst this year. I think its money problems, parents, Uni, girly stuff etc(feeling really unattractive and stuff)I'm going on the atkins diet tomorrow anyway. I did my shopping for it today so I am ready to start tomorrow......role on Tuesday!I'm hoping Graham isn't gettin sick of my moods,I know I've been pissin him off,he doesn't like seeing me upset so I have to put on a happy face most of the time. Anyway blah blah blah, think this diary idea may have been a bad idea cause I'm looking back at stuff I write and think I'm going all emo.....I DONT WANNA DO THAT................ Current Mood: cranky Current Music: Poison the Well-The Opinionated are so Opinionated (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 8th, 2004
6:08 pm	Shitty Ok so I have had a shitty day today,I got up early to do work for Uni that had to be in 2 weeks ago and I still haven't done it. It has to be in for tomorrow. Got upset about it and that made me even madder.I hate getting upset,and I hate crying infront of people,its crappy. Reminds me of people who cry in public to get attention (shitheads)Just had a hug with thumper so I feel a bit better now.Thumper is my house rabbit.I also have another called Telulah.Shes fat as fuck,but dead pretty,she has massive big Disney eyes,you know the kind that are big and dark with massive flowing eyelashes,shes beautiful. Also my mouse just tried to commit suicide,he threw himself off my work table again(poor guy) I'm kinda pissed off as well cause my house mate (Hannah) has been shit on by her boyfriend again for like the second time.Shes so stoopid sometimes,she heard the rumours but stuck up for him saying that everyone else was wrong about him. Hes been fucking his ex behind her back. I wanna get mad with him but cant cause really its none of my business. He should feel bad knowing that everybody has been talking about him behind his back cause everyone knows what hes been up to,thats right,FUCKING HIS EX.Makes me laugh though to think that people are so fucked up,I'm glad I'm not,I make mistakes but not that bad. Getting my fingertips tattooed tomorrow hopefully.My ear hurts,just streched em up again.One is 10ml and one is 4ml,trying to get em both to ten then may stretch them up more.Lets see..... Current Mood: stressed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
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5:52 pm	Thumper my house rabbit (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 7th, 2004
11:20 pm	Close to death Right,you know that shitty job that I work in?I just got home and nearly got killed.Not by one car but two at the same traffic lights. I was carrying two boxes across the road and dropped my jacket, but the lights are on red right?so I'm thinking no cars won't come close....WRONG!.....One car went straight through the lights at like 80mph and JUST missed me as I was trying to pick up my jacket, so I was trying to get across the road without getting killed and started to kick my jacket across the road (with my phone in the pocket!)cause there was nothing else I could do,THEN another car was driving straight for me at a faster speed right through the red lights. That kinda sucked. Happy to be home and also happy cause my house mate told me he showed a picture of me to some of his friends in uni who think I'm BONEABLE!LOL! Everyone seemes to be out or partying tonight except me (which is unusual and kinda depressing)But hey I guess I got my kicks last night........ Current Mood: amused Current Music: Finch-Perfection through silence (Comment on this)
4:51 pm	Also I forgot to say, Graham (the air I breathe) made me a cake for when I got home last night as a surprise and picked me up from work!Cut his hair today,hes so pwetty he looks like Travis Barker but cuter...mmmmm.... Current Music: poison the Well-Meeting again for the first time (Comment on this)
3:31 pm	Happy day Well....today I'm feeling better. In a hypo mood,probably cause I had such a good night last night. I was told I could come home from work early (BONUS!) so I was home at 9:30pm,stopped at KFC on the way then Caffs friend called and asked us if we wanted to go on a night out to Manchester to go to Satans Hollow(a little hardcore/punk/pop place where Converge played a couple of Mondays ago)So we went out and had the best night ever!I met Niel,a guy who I met in first year of uni, and I havent seen him for 2years,we totally lost contact!Kinda coincidence as he hasn't been out on Firday for 6months.We spoke again on the phone again.Fate I guess.I never used to believe in it but recent events have changed my belief. I scare myself.....I have dreams about random events and something always happens from my dreams the next day.It happened today again.It happens a lot.It used to happen to my great grandma, if she use to dream about goldfish it meant something bad was going to happen. Caffryn was soooo funny yesterday,she swung a plastic bag around in the air a couple of times and her hairspray flew out of a hole in the bottom of the bag and nearly flew across the road!It was funny,she always makes me laugh! She was funny last night too. I read the nicest journal entry yesterday from someone in my list,it was really touching.I have read it more than once. I havent ever read such a perfectly constructed emotional piece in my life. I think you know who you are. I'm not looking forward to work again tonight,6pm till 11pm. Hate it when drunk tramps try and hit on you across the counter stinking of alcohol and shite. Not very nice,and there is always a guarenteed fight. I wanna get out of this place. I'm planning on going to America in summer and seeing if I can stay there. I was going to apply for a visa before christmas but wasnt too sure. I'm scared to go by myself, but I am quite independent so I would be ok. See if I can get Caffryn to come with me. Anyway going to make food now....xXx Current Mood: happy Current Music: Poison the Well-For a Bandaged Iris (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, February 6th, 2004
3:43 pm	Can't the ground just swallow me up? Ok I finished my hair and have rushed around all day. Now I'm pissed off and irritated cause I just realised I look like Kelly Ozzbourne the PIG!Fuck I'm so pissed off that I have to go to work too, when I'd rather sit here playing my guitar for a while or talking to Caffryn for hours, when now I have to go to work and serve old drunk stinking pentioners! I know I have already written 2 entries but today is a bad one. Always feel better writing how I feel instead of letting it boil up inside then taking it out on my house mates (another good reason for starting this journal)I'm also kinda sad today, a bit down and I dont know why,it looks like its going to rain, I guess I will feel better when I walk to work. I also feel guilty as my parents have flown over to see me and my granma and I have only seen them once in 2 weeks. I need to make more of an effort. They miss me and I always come up with excuses and they are only 40minutes away on the train at my granma's house.Little starry eyes always chex herself B4 she wrecks herself...... Current Mood: sad Current Music: Converge-Clean (Comment on this)
11:51 am	Busy day Ok so I just woke up a bit down today cause I had bad dreams last night. They seemed so real so waking up to the real world has left me with a numb head and a strong feeling of separation from everyone. I suffer from nightmares nearly everynight since the last lear,but I dont know why. Also I decided I dont like the colour of my hair. It exactly like the picture I posted last night. I bleached some of the underneath cause I wanted to dye it blue,but its not light enough so I think I'm gonna go pink or red. I just woke poor Caffryn up to make her come with me. She used to be a hairdreser, shes like the best hairdresser I have ever had.....and I live with her! Anyways, I have to go to work tonight. I work part time cause I'm in Uni. Working in Liverpool is like the most harsh place to work or even live. I work in an off licence (selling alcohol)and its already been held up 4 times. I always dread having to go to work but I need the money and there arent any jobs going anywhere at the moment bacause of the massive student population all having them. I heard from one American guy that Liverpool to Americans is know as one of the toughest places in England, fuck that! I think it should be known as the toughest place in the UK. You cant go anywhere without seeing a fight in the day and all the kids want to beat everyone up,even old people! I was so scared when I first came to live here,one of the first nights I went out someone got stabbed in the neck with a bottle and was bleeding to death infront of everybody,and my ex got smashed over the head with a bottle. Liverpoool aint nice, especially when you hear the random gunshots at night when you are even living just outside the city! I'm excited knowing that my arm tattoo is going to be "repaired" next Friday. I designed this tattoo that took me forever then got it done with mad star path coming off of it, then one day went to get it coloured in and the tattooist did the wrong thing I asked for. I have been gutted ever since. But now it has been a long time he is going to go over it with bright colours instead of shitty dark colours. I will post a picture of before when it wasnt coloured and now then I will post one when it gets repaired. Cant spent too much time writing today,gotta get moving d;-( Angie xXx (2 Comments |Comment on this)
12:46 am	Before=long hair ---->Now=short hair Well,its now 01:38 and I'm tired after doing my hair and now I'm ready for bed. I prefer my hair short. When I look back on it I looked like a prick with long hair. Everyone has already gone to bed except Caffryn who is still talking to her new boy.Night Peeps xXx ( Read more... ) Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: Funeral for a Friend-Your revolution is a joke (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 5th, 2004
6:29 pm	My first Writing So, here I am, this is the first time I have written a journal never mind a live one. I don't really know where to start, but anyways here goes. One of my best friends, Caffryn, who I live with- young_team_hero started one of these a while ago now, as I remember it was the day when the mousey mousey (one of my pets) nearly met his fate for like the third time already after being caught by the resident cat and dragged around the house squeaking and squealing chased by me and Caffryn as we tried to save it. Caffryn was nearly in tears because she thought the mouse was going to die, but I wasn't arsed. Its happened before and will probably happen again, the mouse has never actually been hurt by its encounters with the cat the past so I didn't panic. I hate that bastard cat!He's crap,I love all animals but he is a horrible moody bastard of a cat. He scratches you all the time (ON PURPOSE!),he cries all the time (....ON PURPOSE!), and nearly had Caff's eye out(.............ON PURPOSE!)and basically is alive (........................ON PURPOSE!)HATE THAT CAT!He belongs to my other loud house mate Hannah. She WILL come home one day and find precious Benji the cat on the Barbecue! I actually started this so people can find out what I'm really like in the hope that I might make some more friends outside of my circle who I already know. Caffryn met a really nice person today, shes really excited cause he's so nice. So please reply! I'll try and get some pics up of all of us soon, Thanks for reading Angie x (3 Comments |Comment on this)